No comment....

I never get any comments on my posts and I'm happy about that. That means nobody is reading them, or if they are, they don't care enough to comment. I guess all these things that have happened to me in the past 9 years really don't mean much in the grand scheme of things. I've seen so many people so much worse off and I feel sad for everyone else. I've been quite lucky in spite of what it looks like. I have a great husband/partner who does whatever he can to make me comfortable and happy. For 7 years before that I had a room mate that was like Felix Unger and made sure our living conditions were nice (as long as I provided the house, credit and allowed him to do whatever he wanted in his "secret life"). When I realized that I wanted more than a room mate, I moved on and found someone wonderful although I wasn't looking. That's always the way, isn't it? I still can't face the death of Linda. I haven't been able to even think about it without feeling like I'm falling into a pit of darkness. I am trying to undo the damage done to her children but I fear the long-term effects - it's OK now but what about when they grow up and the reality of what their scumbag father did to their mother becomes part of their "life story." What a legacy the scumbag left. What's bad is that everyone knew he was a scumbag - his mother, his family, his ex-wife. Linda fell into the trap of hope - she had so much hope that her life would get better. She had so much hope that her husband would be better. She had so much hope that her family would be better. None of it got better. She was attacked from all sides and was beaten down, helpless. Even then, when I talked to her, she would say everything was ok and she had hopes that her life would get better. I can only hope that there is a justice down the road that will come for Linda's kids. I have more than hope, I know it is on it's way.